I was gone a long time, traveling last month. When I came back I realized just how burnt out I had been before I left. For many months I juggled my photography business, my own creative projects, my full time job which I happen to really like, and my personal life. My vice was thinking I could do it all and still do it well. There were the long nights (and very early mornings) spent hunched over my computer editing away towards a deadline, then there were the shooting jobs I piled on knowing it meant putting off anticipated personal projects, then there were important people in my life whom I was neglecting, and finally I put myself last and ate horribly, slept very little, and got sick often.
It took a trip halfway around the world to shed the workaholic mentality and to finally ask myself “What am I doing and how long can I keep this up?” The more time I spent in the sun, the more I experienced, the more time I spent with the people I loved, the more I photographed entirely for myself, the more I realized that I was reclaiming a vision that had somehow been lost along the way.
So I really tried to hold onto that when I came back. I am striving towards balance and taking the path of least resistance, working smarter, limiting the hours I spend in front of my computer screen, keeping positive and letting go of the attitude that I am somehow “missing out” on something (if I say not to a photo job that isn’t right for me or if I am not working on something every free moment I have). Don’t get me I still stand firmly in my belief that no one gets anywhere without some sweat equity, but more importantly I’ve learned that keeping myself happy and balanced is directly proportional to my own creativity.
All I really needed was to take a step back in order to take a large leap forward.
*The first photo was taken in Tokyo on a really long layover. The rest in the Philippines, a mix of iphone and the good ole canon 5d mk ii.